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My instinct is to use my words. However, perhaps not in blog form on the internet. I do not know how to share, and what. Therefore, blog becomes internet dump; dumps are one’s own. My instinct is to make a joke here, but I’d rather the image not be associated.

Would it be too dramatic to write “I wish to give thanks”? I’m thinking of a few meanies who I’d be embarrassed to say this in front of, maybe in real life.

“We become what we love.”

Can I share something terribly vulnerable?

We are so deeply impacted by one another, as people - are we paying attention?

A few months ago I wrote something that felt meaningful, under all the right circumstances, and it was staged and performed in front of an audience. I liked this feeling. (It concerns me for a number of reasons: 1. it was only any semblance of good because I channeled someone very special to me, whom I am no longer in contact with, 2. Playwriting?! 🤢 and 3. will I grow too powerful? (This is a joke, but) HERE’SWHATIMEAN: the feedback I received was interesting, and I tend to enjoy challenging myself—will I do this again, and can it be even BETTER? And could I do it without the aforementioned human?) (I don’t wanna!)

I do love comedy, but a subtle sort of word-focused nut-scratchers that doesn’t depend on my mood. What’s a gal to do?

Disgusting to reflect in this way, but life of an artist, eh? Learning to rinse that shame awaaaay.

So I wish to give thanks, to folks for their impacts on me. I’ve been feeling love for the first time again in many years, and certain folks bubble to the noggin’. Some surprising folks, too. Thank you to the folks who know how to love, and thank you to your caregivers for teaching you of kindness in de world. Thanks to those who don’t take it back when they see too much of your human.

“We are all walking each other home.”

I’ve loved at different times in my life. I’ve hurt at times too. I’m working on creating a life that I love, so that I may love more too. One does not want to (unintentionally or otherwise!) hurt another because they are unhappy with their own circumstances, correct? One is responsible for moving through this world in a way one can be proud of. I challenge myself to keep this in mind as I come here to share, reflect, and build. ✊